Today's Meditation starts out...
"The room is dark, forehead is bathed in cold sweat....your heart is racing..." DAMN... if all that is happening then I am ACTUALLY using NOT dreaming...
Most people wake up thinking they just blew their clean time , NOT me... I get pissed that I woke up at all.. I try to fall back to sleep and hope I pick up my dream where we left off.. In my dream I am a successful superstar addict.. I use to get scared of using dreams now I sleep ALLLL the time hoping to have one.. I read drug addict stories in the back of the book but I stop when the recovery starts so I can have a better chance of having a drug dream.. I have been clean for 17 years and there are so many new things out there that I never had a chance to do. In my dreams I drink a ton of Zimas and Mikes Hard....I usually wake up after a gallon of Padron which sounds like the coolest alcohol out there....I want to be a rapper every time I hear the word Padron....and in my dreams I am .. I am a padron drinking rapper that spends most of the time in the bathroom smoking crack all alone ... that last part is there to keep me rooted in reality.. I end up in the bathroom alone and lonely.... But when I wake up I am truly grateful for my life... My life is sweet just the way it is.. I love being me...
Ok ....Let me get back to sleep.. MC Mikey Gee and the Padrons are due back stage in 10minutes.. Goodnight
Thanks for letting me share
Mike G
Great shit!
ReplyDeleteDrug dreams... I like to look at them as Freebies. And wonderful Freebies at that!
But I'm always grateful to wake up and realize it was all a dream. The recovery life has been leaps and bounds better then my using life. Excluding Woodstock 94'...Nothing compares to that weekend. I want to dream about that all the time. But after Woodstock 94' it's recovery all the way.