"Life is a rollercoaster from the mind of a Thirteen year old"

Today my daughter, my lil angel wanted to read me something she wrote in school. She said she was just sitting in class , picked up her pen and the words just came out..   I wanted to share it with my friends and fans...

I act like I am not afraid of anything.
I say that words dont hurt me even though they do.
I act like everything rolls off my back even when it doesnt.
I always think I am not good enough for this crazy world.
Life is a rollercoaster that never stops..
I hate when I think about growing up.
I never want that rollercoaster to end or at least I want it to go slower..
LIFE IS FLYING BY BEFORE I EVEN GET TO LIVE IT....

As I heard her read these words I was hit with a couple of emotions... I was sad that she thinks shes not good enough for this world....that she affraid of growing up, that she thinks her life is passing her by.. I was very sad to hear my lil girl say these things but I was soooo proud of her for having the ability to.. I was so happy that she is able to put her thoughts and fears on paper, that she was able to share them with me....I was also very happy that she realizes that life is flying by and we need to get busy living it... I just hope she will understand that each day , each moment is life ...and we have a chance to be apart of each and every second of it if we choose....  That is my job as her dad.. my job is to show her that we cant wait for life we have to go get it... I am so proud of her... she wanted me to post this on my blog becuase she realizes how important it is to share your thoughts and feelings with others , you never know who you may help...

I love you Sammy... This beautiful rollercoaster called life loves you too...HOLD ON TIGHT...

Thanks for reading...

Mike and Sammy

Be careful what you pray for.....

"Be careful what you pray for"... This is something I have been hearing since day one of my recovery... I understood it from jump street..  Basically watch what you wish for because when you get it you may regret it...whatever "it" may be....IT may suck ass....IT may take your car...IT may give you a burning sensation in your groin....IT may make you work 15 hours a day to maintain... IT may use way too much gas....IT may bang your best friend.... I get it...With this understanding I have never prayed for anything specific such as a job , girl, family, car ...etc....I have always prayed to be OK with whatever is happening in my life.. I have always prayed for hope and understanding...

I have recently been feeling a LITTLE lonely .. not LONELY LONELY....just a little lonely... I went as far as to post it on my Facebook... Just saying that something has been tugging at me for a few days now and I think its the fact that I haven't been in a relationship in so long.. I have been HAPPILY single for a long ass time but recently I have once again felt the need or want to have someone special in my life... I will NEVER pray for this to happen....once again I ask my HP to help me be OK with whatever happens in my day to day....  A few very sweet friends/fans/fellowship members have left comments on my Facebook status saying they will pray for me to find someone... NOOOOOOOOOO....please don't pray for me to find anyone...  Its one thing to watch what I pray for but I don't want to have to worry about what YOU are praying FOR ME to find ....Will you be there when IT takes my phone..reads my text messages and flushes my phone down the toilet because she thinks I'm fooling around? or when IT makes me change my damn Facebook profile pic to me and IT kissing?  no....you will be off praying for your pain in the ass to go away....  Thank you for the loving gesture but I'm good..  If I put myself out there IT will come ...and I will know weather IT gets to stay or not....

So I guess I am praying that people don't pray for me....LOL

Much Love
Mike

Angry Serenity Prayer....

Little comedy show clip... This is the prayer I say when I really aint prayin for ya.. Its kinda like when someone says "I'll pray for you" or "some are sicker than others so we should pray for them"... I always tell those assfaces that if you REALLY TRULY plan on praying for someone because you feel they need Gods help then JUST FRIGGIN PRAY n SHUT UP... When someone says "I'll pray for you" they are pretty much telling you to go F yourself but trying to make themselves look like the better one.. Its like saying "I am so Humble" ..

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I expect you to have no expectations....Huh

One of the fellowships meditations for July 29th speaks about expectations...  Very ironic because as I read the title "EXPECTATIONS"  I EXPECT to get something out of the meditation....

My first few years of recovery were spent walking a VERY VERY RIGID line.. There was no room for error on my part and I certainly wasn't allowing you to make your own errors..  I believed if you didn't go to 15 meetings a week, have 5 group level commitments , carry the message in to facilities than you just weren't recovering.....You must not want this ...  I would spend hours shouting at you in the diner parking lot...Hours shouting at you over the phone....Hours shouting at you after a meeting.... BLAH BLAH BLAH....  My buddy use to say " let people be people" ...I had no frigging idea how to do that .. Until I needed some slack in my life...When I was unable to live up to the expectations I had set for everyone else, when I couldn't maintain 15 meetings a week, when I needed a break....that's when I realized I needed to lay off everyone.. If I want people to give me some slack then I was going to have to give it to them first...  but even then..even when I was giving slack I was expecting it in return...  I was forgiving in order to be forgiven...NOT THE RIGHT REASONS.... I needed to give in order to just give... I needed to let people live and enjoy life the way they see fit.. and not expect them to let me do the same..   just do it because its the right way to be.... Don't judge because its an unhealthy behavior not because you dont want to be judged  ..  Have you ever heard people say "People who matter don't judge and people who judge don't matter"?  That statement is equally judgmental if not worse because they believe they are the good ones.. Judging those who judge.... I was one of those people ...spewing the words of my buddy "Let people be people" while demanding you let me be me..  I just have to be me, I have to be true to myself and when that happens I tend to allow others to be themselves.. even if they don't like me... even if they don't let me be me... I live for me and I don't require anyone to allow me to be me anymore....and I don't dare stop others from being true to themselves....

I no longer forgive in order to be forgiven ... I forgive because its easier on ME....I am extreeeeemly selfish

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Mike G

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